Caution, danger ahead.

Well, well, the world can still provide surprises.

Had one of those days today. Full on, not much time, but still time to talk to distant friends. Had enough of arrogant little beings, spent a fair amount of time giving back rather than just taking abuse from students. I like showing anger without getting angry. Was asked if I felt better for it and I have to say, I do. Just get chocolate, coffee, maybe a wine and curl up on the couch tonight and the day will actually have been quite good.

Interesting too, other developments. I made a move the other day, got shown the false basis of my assumptions. Have spent time learning the truth of that, a surprisingly small amount of hours. Must be all previous lessons impacting finally. Then a bolt out of the blue.

To say I am surprised is an understatement. What to do though? Funny, in the past I would have spent more time than this here wondering, analysing, thinking of suitable reponse. Now? Well, I doubt the truth and think even less of purpose, so I guess I just assume the aberation is just a strange freak and then wait for things and see if they show the usual. To quietly speak here seems a safer, less personally humiliating option than making any more direct response. And if not a single event? I will deal with that then.

Ah, wary caution? This is indeed new for me.

Easier with practice

Busy times, meetings, days off, all these work well and soon you have found that a week has gone by without the usual pit falls. Well, there was the one brief glitch, but it was only that. Soon forgotten and the only problem is that there is no retraction available with that form of communication.

Look here now, spend some time finishing off the day, then by the time I make my way back for any possible socialising, the party will have gone. For with them leaving early, arriving late, that goes a long way to helping me work through my problems. And though I cannot claim to be cured, remission is certainly holding its own.

Truant

I had a friend ask me if I was still part time teaching. Just went to prove how much contact I had lost with her. I see her almost every week, but it has been a long time since we sat down and had a chat. A very long time, obviously. It has been two years since I had days off.

Anyway, she asked me if I wanted to go shopping, today. Hard decision, not. A 6 on day after standing all day for a sports event, double year 8's? A lazy day, I hope. And I do not feel guilty in the slightest.

Things have changed, I hope. To actually take time away from work, voluntarily, is something new for recent times. Along the lines of contemplating a shift away, I guess. Mind, I could not get away without the obligatory contact. Email sent but I plan to be good elsewhere.

It helps to focus on the reality. After all, the negative is much more in evident than any positive.