In and Out

I have decided that the one in charge is a decidedly warped character. Just look at this creation. Or, more specifically, look at the people put on to populate creation. I suppose it is just one way of ensuring life is not boring.

Someone once told me that you can never take an objective view while you are on the inside, you needed to be outside. I am really not sure if I can agree with that. This last while I have felt at times so deep in the well that I saw stars in the sky during daylight hour (yes, it is possible, according to one of the many trivia books that adorn my shelves). Now I feel that I have finally moved outside of that but I do not feel objective at all. Nothing has changed, I do not believe anything will change as there is no indication of any change, so what happened? One of those great mysteries of life? Good thing I am nowhere near the Bermuda triangle, or I would be in serious trouble.

Anyway, speaking as I was of out and in, why is it that some people insist on trying to keep out those they want in? Do they have such an unreal expectation of what they see is the 'right one' that when they come along, unless they fit the picture exactly, they are wrong? It frustrates me to see couples where one is attracted to another and then spends so much time and effort trying to change them into something they are not, in order to fulfil unreal expectations. Unreal, in that how can either possibly be content in such? The one, in trying to be what they are not in order to be what the other wants. The other, in that no matter how good the match, how could they possibly live up to expectations?

I know I am so lucky. I have relationships that do not involve the above. I am accepted for what I am and very little effort made to mould me. Not necessarily an entirely good thing, I could do with being a lot more health conscious, less casual with finances and definitely a lot less selfish, but my angst only comes from what I do to myself.

But one thing I have had shown to be true. In all of my relationships at present, it is those that feel right, that I do not have to work at, that give me the most satisfaction and joy. There is a wide circle in which I love and am loved. What more could I ask for?