Cycles

You know, I am getting tired of chasing my tail. Why is it that I keep running around in the same circles, creating the same amount of negative energy? It cannot be good for me or those around me. Wrong, I know it is not good for one near me. But what can I say? It is nice to be needed, valued in some small way by someone outside family. And though I know I am special to my family, in this case there is no obligation to do so. I think there is the problem. I know I am the center of my universe, it is hard to accept the fact that I am not the center of everyone elses.