Retreat and regroup

When does a tactical retreat translate into surrender? I feel the need to withdraw, turn into myself, for the little comfort that provides. I do too much wrong lately, to myself and to others. Time to shut down and let the world go around without me. Not that it cares what I do anyway, but I seem to be having only negative impact at the moment. This way, I may have a chance of limiting damage all around. I have expected too much from all those around me at the moment and have had severe reality checks on all fronts. Something I obviously needed, but not welcome regardless. I suppose I should be thankful for small mercies though. At least I have only humilated myself privately. Again based on gross misassumptions and expectations. Hopefully I have learned that lesson. Should have by now. Just need to keep that in mind and it may save me doing it publically. Now that would leave no room for manouvers. But it sure feels like war. Counter defense on one front I could deal with, but not a combined attack. Not that there has been an aliance formed from the combatants, just that their timing has worked beautifully for my detriment. Or should that be betterment? I am too sore and battle weary at the moment to see the good that is probably going to rise from the ashes.